Remembering Worlds
On a lighter note, there are always things to smile about. Like my new pair of shoes that i
really shouldnt have bought. Oh well... Sometimes you just gotta live the good life right? Right.
So anyway, here's one to Worlds 2007. Thanks guys, it was really great.
One for the cliches.
Well, i guess a lot has happened since i was last here. The new year, Worlds, new last sem, and oh, other stuff. Things at the moment are... confused, chaotic. My last sem, new decisions, new revelations, new... new a lot of things. I've made decisions, and i believe them to be true and right. Whether they are true and right is yet to be determined, but... i just have to breathe. Patience has never been my strong point, nor has sitting still and allowing myself to be trampled over, but, its a new year. I'll take some for... for all that is perceived to be good and right. I shouldnt burn the bridges. Not now. It's too soon. I need to giv it time. It's only fair, really. But... i dont know for how long. How long until it's just abuse? How long till it's just not worth it? Maybe the cliches are right. Maybe we cant just be friends. Perhaps in the end, it really was all or nothing. And maybe thats just what it has to be.
Princess Snowy
Look who i puppy-sat today... Princess Snowy. All she does is sleep, eat, pee and bite stuff. Cute dog. Good disposition.
Oppurtunities in Life
Well, i'm getting sick. This is not good. Drinking lots of water and praying that i dont wake up with a sore throat tomorrow. Exams are really bad enough.
I have English tomorrow. I hate studying English. It's the language i speak, but studying it. =P Oh well, watever. I dont even know how long the paper is. I thought it was 3 hours, but the website says 2. So, that means it's probably 3. Hope not, got an invitation to go for the press conference of The Red Kebaya tomorrow at 12pm. Dont really know what i'm suppose to do there, but it sounds good. *sigh* Talk about oppurtunities in life, why is it that even though i know i dont try enough to make them, i dont even try enough to grab them?
On a happier note, there was this really funny column in The Star yesterday. Star Mag, pages 2 to 3 by Andrew Sia. Now that dude rocks. It's about Datuk 'Mukaria', his "Happy Gucci Gucci Face" and "Sacred Satay Restaurent". Get the drift? If you dont, you need to READ MORE NEWSPAPERS.
If we could be anything.
Well, it's 3 a.m. Just about my favourite time of the day, or at least the time where i'm usually almost always awake. So, it's the end of the semester and next year will be our last semester, except for those people who are luck/unlucky enough to be in four year courses, and the question on most people's minds (or not, for those "carefree" people / ppl trying to avoid thinking about it, no names mentioned) is WHAT IN THE WORLD ARE WE GONNA DO NEXT? What are we gonna be? What's gonna happen? Are we gonna hav to move? What are we gonna work as? How are we going to
getwhatever we are going to end up doing? (reread the last question, it makes sense if you think about it, really...)
Jit Shiong says i think too much. Actually most people say that. And the people that dont say it dont cause it's already understood. I could explain
why i think that way, but that would require overthinking, so... i wont. *wink* Instead, this post is going to be dedicated to all the things that we wish we could be. And it's not gonna be depressing, really. If
time, money and
location werent factors, i mean really, not factors AT ALL, what would you be? If you could be anything... anything at all in the whole wide world, what would it be?
I would be... three things all at one (not at the same time, but generally do them in rotation)
1. TV newscaster
2. hip hop dancer / professional cheerleader (american football, the basketball ones look a little... umm... tacky)
3. work for Amnesty International and try to save the world =)
So... this would normally be the part where i over-analyse why i would choose what i have chosen, but i won... oh hell, i will. I'm thinking of my dream jobs, not changing my entire personality. I've thought about it and i realised, i want a job where it requires in large amounts my mind (1), body (2) and soul (3). Kinda cool huh, i didnt even know i wanted that. So... think about it, if you could be anything... anything, anything in the whole wide world and time and money wasnt a factor, what would you be? =)
Exactly what you need
I went for a run today. Guess that's how bad the studying is going, I had to
run. Havent run in a long time, granted, but i always remember running to be relaxing. Especially when i had a lot on my mind. It was like playing the piano, u know? Don't know exactly why, but i can always figure out my problems when i play the piano. It's like i'm playing, but my mind's not really there, but at the same time it doenst give you that oh-so-depressed feeling of sitting down and
working out your problems. Like, here, sit, dont do anything, and by the time you get up, you better have figured all this out. Talk about pressure on top of problems.
So, anyway, have had a lot on my mind lately. Exams, the lack of caring about exams, the not so distant graduation, life, studies, rejection & dejection (*wink* my clubbing momma will understand), life... life... oh, life. I turned 22 about a week ago, but I dont feel 22, you know? In some ways i feel like i'm about 16 and in others, i feel like about 80. This is the last year of
the plan. The next step was supposed to be CNN Asia. Geez,
the plan was erected when i was 14. A mature 14, but nontheless. Maybe i really thought it would be that easy.
So, back to running. Goal: 20 min. Achievement: 21 min not including cooling down walking. I am proud. And, i do feel better. Now i remember whats so relaxing about running. I thought i might figure out all that's on my mind, well i didnt. I didnt think about it at all. I forgot that when i run, (probably to keep from dying) all i think about is the sky, the road and my feet. And really nothing else. It's great. Some things help you think about ur problems, some things help you not to think about them. And sometimes the latter is exactly what you need.
I Feel Stupid... :)
I am studying! And i love Matchbox 20.
Mad Season - Matchbox 20 I feel stupid - but I know it won't last for long
And I've been guessing - and I could have been guessin' wrong
You don't know me now
I kinda thought that you should somehow
Does that whole mad season got ya down?
I feel stupid, but it's something that comes and goes
And I've been changin' - I think it's funny how now one knows
We don't talk about the little things that we do without
When that whole mad season comes around
So why you gotta stand there
Looking like the answer now?
It seems to me you'd come around
I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out - that I'm lost and I'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken, though I've never spoken
I come undone
In this mad season
I feel stupid, but I think I've been catchin' on
I feel ugly, but I know I still turn you on
You've grown colder now, torn apart, angry, turned around
Will that whole mad season knock you down?
So are you gonna stand there
Are you gonna help me out?
We need to be together now
I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out - that I'm lost and I'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken, though I've never spoken
I come undone
In this mad season
And now I'm cryin'
Isn't that what you want?
I'm tryin' to live my life on my own
But I won't, no,
At times I do believe I am strong
So someone tell me why, why, why?
Do I, I, I...
Feel stupid
And I come undone
And I come undone
I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out - that I'm lost and I'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken though I've never spoken
I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out - I'm a child and I'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken though I've never spoken
I come undone in this mad season
In this mad season
There's been a mad season
Been a mad season
Remembering You
I'm remembering you, dear...
Steven Curtis Chapman - Remembering You (OST Chronicles of Narnia)
I found You in the most unlikely way
But really it was You who found me
And I found myself in the gifts that You gave
You gave me so much and I
I wish You could stay
but I'll, I'll wait for the day
Chorus
And I watch as the cold winter melts into spring
And I'll be remembering You
Oh and I'll smell the flowers and hear the birds sing
and I'll be remembering You, I'll be remembering You
From the first moment when I heard Your name
Something in my heart came alive
You showed me love and no words could explain
A love with the power to
Open the door
To a world I was made for
Chorus
The dark night, the hard fight
The long climb up the hill knowing the cost
The brave death, the last breathe
The silence whispering all hope was lost
The thunder, the wonder
A power that brings the dead back to life
I wish You could stay
But I'll wait for the day
And though You've gone away
You come back and
Chorus
And I'll watch as the sun fills a sky that was dark
And I'll be remembering You
And I'll think of the way that You fill up my heart
And I'll be remembering You
I'll be remembering You
I'll be remembering You
I'll be remembering You
I'll be remembering You 
